i cannot help but wish for a different reality. i know some things cant be changed. and as the saying goes "one has to be contented with one's lot in life." yet, doesnt it just hit you sometimes that the world we live in is one where nothing is really real? people hide behind the masks of falsehood, of lies and deceit.

i welcome violence in my world.
i welcome pain and suffering in my world.

and my world? is also YOUR world.

but do you welcome the feelings and emotions of falsehood? people generally don't consciously do it. yet each time we open our mouths, we're inviting it. each time we let our mind wander, we're inviting it.

it invades, covers, blocks out the feelings of goodwill and kindness.

each time i write here, i feel as if what i'm portraying is a very negative image of the world and my opinions. the depressive air about this smothers. and people are turned off. well, i say that it's hard core fact. deal with it. if you want to read about bunnies hoping around and little butterflies flying in the air, go read someone else's blog. because you wouldn't find it here. i write this because i believe in what i say. not delusional, not insane. it's my opinion. and in case anyone's wondering, i do have periods of happiness, same as everyone else. i'm no different. i like being happy, and i would be happy, if there's cause for it. if not, rest assured that negative thoughts will be consistent in every blog entry. because that's simply how i think the world is.

yes, i have a problem with the world.
yes, i have a problem with society today.

because each time i try to change my view, somethings happen to slap me out of that particular illusion.